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October 7, 2001
My first entry. Wow, this is great. I finally got off my ass and updated my website again, after almost a month of doing nothing. I guess the reason I did update was due to the fact that I wanted an outlet. I come to the conclusion that I'm on a cycle when i comes to the vexing members of the opposite sex. Right now I in the depression stage. I get super depressed because I want a relationship. I don't have one and there's no prospects that I have currently on my "list". Then sooner or later I'll say to myself that I don't need a relationship. Fuck it, not worth it. This results in me burying myself in my school work, video games, internet, reading, etc. Anything to get my mind off that one word, women. This is okay until I see someone I know interacting with their significant other. Then, BAM! Back to the depression stage. This whole cycle started to surface this summer. All I did was work and sit on my computer most of this summer. I did ask Alyssa from work out and she said yes, but then canceled later on saying that she was already involved with someone else. I don't take rejection well I guess. My emotion go all over the place and takes awhile for them to level out. Then college came around and all was good.... or so I thought. I met my friend's roommate, Peggy. She is awesome in almost everyway. Of course, rejected! Don't get me wrong, we're friends and that's great. But she's got her eye on someone else. Dammit, life sucks. I have alot more i want to write down, but I'm tired and i'm going to bed. I'll do it later this week. Until then, later. October 8, 2001 For some reason I'm in a really good mood. Still pissed off about the women thing, but it's on the back burner at the moment. I think it's due to the fact that I drank caffine and was doing math at the same time. Also finding out that the exam i was stressing out about does appear that it will be bad at all. ^_^ YAY! Still have to start on that Assembly program though. That sucks. Well, I guess i'll finish up what I was talking about last night. In High School it was super easy to meet women. You had class with them every day. In college you don't interact with them as much in class and classes don't meet everyday. You have to be assertive when i comes to meeting women. Me, I'm not good at that at all. Once out in the real world, I'll be fucked. It'll be so much harder to meet that group from world of estrogen. I get scared thinking about it. Yikes. That's part of the depression part. I'm gonna try and not piss and moan about the lack of womanage. Key word: TRY. Let's see, I'm going to be buried is studying this week. Hopefully I come out this weekend with my sanity... Bedtime, laterz October 15, 2001 Well, I'm here and I'm acutally writing another entry. I'm starting to get used to this. I think I finally broke the cycle. Don't know how it happened, but the whole wanted a relationship cycle has been broken! YOSH! I'm just happy doing what I'm doing now. It would be nice to have a relationship but it's not that big anymore. I hate it when people whine about women/men and not having them. Yes, I'm insulting myself. (Hey, if my friends can do it, why can't I?) So, I decided to stop being a whiny bastard and get on with life. No use in complaining and whining about it. Nobody likes to hear you do that. Sorry to the people who had to listen to it! I'm going to just leave it to chance now. That's the best way. Just happening to meet someone and not actively out there looking is better. And so ends the ranting and whining about women, period. I bought Dark Ages of Camelot today am going to upgrade my computer so I can play it. Fuck yeah! It's going to be so much fun. I also downloaded The Babylon Project for Freespace 2 and put them up here. I look Babylon 5. What a great Sci Fi TV show. I also bought the whole series of Lodoss War on DVD. I'm sooo happy! ^_^ Anime makes me reall happy. I'm spending a bunch of money... not good. I don't like doing that. I like to have a nice cushion of money just in case of unexpected things. Oh well. Computer parts and Anime are gooooooood. Did get to go play some Dungeons and Dragons today too. I'm playing a Lawful Good Rogue named Eldon Dirkholder. I'm really loving playing one. I have never played one and find it exciting sneaking around, searching for secrets, back stabbing, picking locks, and being one dexterious little dude. Other than that, it's been study, study, study for me! Gotta keep up those grades if I want to go to Japan and study. Which reminds me, I have to fill out that application. Damn, it's 1:30. I need to go to bed. Later. October 23, 2001 Well, it's been awhile since I wrote in this, but I'm back (from outer space, no less) and ready to type something up. I'm finally through all my midterms. There were spread out through three weeks, not too bad. I actually got a bit of time on my hands now and I don't know what to do with. Then I remembered, work on my site!! What a concept. We got a first overall in the IU sailing regatta this past weekend. That was all kinds of fun. I love sailing. The fall season's mostly over, so I'll have alittle more time on my hands. That's a good thing. Doing well in all my classes, another good thing. So as far as academia goes, I'm one bad ass mother fucker! I'm getting ready to apply for the overseas study thing. There was a meeting for it last night. There was sooooo many people there. Not good. They only let about 4 to 5 go. I have to be one awesome looking canidate to get accepted. I think i can pull it off. I've been shaping most of my activities and academics towards this program. I need to make myself look the best for this. Go me! I can do it! No self doubt(well, maybe a bit). I upgraded my computer. It's one sweet machine now. 1.1 GHz Thunderbird, 256 megs of RAM, ASUS mobo, and a new case. 400 bucks.... OUCH! The only problem left is the name. I name my machines. I look at it this way. I spend so much time with it, it should have a name. I don't know if i should go latin, japanese, or something else. Tough decision. I need to put some decals on it too. I got winamp skinner from Peggy the other day. That's some fun stuff. I finally got me to switch up the skin on winamp and I also switched my background. WOW! I'll be putting up a section on the main page to display my current desktop and winamp skin. Well, this is getting to be a lot of writing. I'll save some of it for later. So, until then. Jya ne, matta ne! October 28, 2001 Woooo Hooo!! I just got back from a weekend of backpacking in the Red River Gorge, Kentucky. The views were awesome, and the hiking was the best. This was the first time I've ever got a big backpack and strapped all I need to my back and took off. There was a group of 5 of us. Matt, Eliza, Erica, and Elizabeth. We got along great and had a great experience together. We got up about 7 on Saturday and got out on the trail by 9. About 1 and half hours into the hike we came to Gray's Arch, a natural stone bridge. We went down under it and hung out for a bit. There was a great view of the rocks and cliffs there. We got in a group photo and started back out. Some of the trail was up on a ridge, so there was a drop off, the trail, and then another drop off. It was about 15 or so feet wide. That was great! That's what makes it worth it. The great views you can get. The trees leaves were all different colors too, so that added to the whole experience. We got in a good solid 6 hours of hardcore hiking in and finally set up camp down in a valley by a stream. We pitched the tents, got firewood, and chilled for awhile. We had Ramen for dinner!! MMMmmm... After that day, a nice hot ANYTHING was good. It was belong 50 the whole trip. We actually had a bit of freezing rain during the trip too, but the hiking was so strenuous that we kept warm. Stopping was a bad thing. The sweat started turning really cold, so we just kept it up. It was alot of up and down too. We would sometimes got up 150 feet in a shot. Crazy uphill action going on. Anyways, when I was pumping up the little gas stove that we had to heat the water. I pumped it a bit too much, and had some spray into my eye. OUCH! That hurt like a bitch. That was the only bad thing that happened. We went to bed around 8:30 and crashed until 8:30 the next morning. I got in some pretty good sleep. Then we had to hike back out. Took us about 4 hours to get back out. 10 hours total of hiking. That was some good exercise. All in all, it was one of the greatest weekends I've had since school started. I'm definitely going to buy and backpack and doing more of this. I'm thinking of organizing a trip this spring break!! WEEEE!!!! Got back to my room about 6 p.m. today. I was one rank dude. One serious shower was what I needed. Feels good to be clean again. Can't wait to do this again! |