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June 12, 2002
Yeah.... It's been quite awhile since I updated this journal. I needed a break I think.... from everything. After i got home from college, i spent 4 weeks doing absolutely nothing constructive. I consisted of video games, eating, sleeping, tv, and the occasional chore that my mom made me do. I think i need this extreme relaxation to counteract the stress of my academia. Which reminds me. I got my grades a couple of weeks ago. Shit! I did way better than i thought i would.... I still amaze myself every semester. Somehow i do better than i was shooting for. It's screwed up, but i can't complain. ^_^ So anyways, back to the excuse for not updating. I'm glad i didn't update this page till now. I've done a crapload of thinking this past month or so. I think i straightened out a lot of stuff. Atleast i hope so! First thing: Direction of my studies. I think I've decided on being a professor or something for a university. There's just something about passing along knowledge that seems like a blast! I thought about high school.... but eh. You've been there. You know what it's like! I just have to worry about the money situation now. You see, I'm working at a factory, 50 hours a week of non-brain stimulating work. It sucks, but the pay is great. I told my mom I was going to take three weeks off before i was leaving for Japan and she totally flipped and started lecturing on money. I dunno. I guess it doesn't look good. I think my mom is totally against student loans and she was ranting about me being in debt when i graduate... What else is new? Isn't every college graduate that way? I guess it just pissed me off because i want to visit friends and take it easy for awhile before i leave. I figure go down to IU to visit nate, aubrey, peggy, and so on and also go up to Michigan and visit family. That seems like it'll be a week, maybe more. Then, I'd like to go camping or something with Francis for a bit and then pack and get ready for japan. I thought three weeks would be good, but it looks like i'm going to have to cram all that into two weeks.... Gak. We'll see if i can hold on to my sanity this summer. Second thing: I barely have a social life right now, since i'm working 50 hours a week and barelly any of my friends are up here, so i've had a lot of "me" time (Dammit!! I'm not talking about masturbation...). This caused me to think about stuff (it's a techical term). I also had a conversation with Kelly, my ex-ex-girlfriend, as in the one before Peggy. I think i finally straightened out all the bad stuff that happened last year about this time. I just started talking and couldn't stop. I told her about peggy, what went wrong, why i think it went wrong, how i was sorry about what happened between us, and the list goes on... She looked a bit out-of-it by the time i was done. I think this is a step in path to understanding. If I just say this stuff and not keep it in, then I think i'll do a lot better than i've been doing. Go me!! It was good for Kelly to... I think. She was a bit hard to read that night. Of course, i suck at reading people. This doesn't help me either. But all in all, it was extremely benificial. Anyways, things are going good this summer, even though i'm just chillin' with this extremely hot dude all the time... wait, that's ME!! I'm a kickass motherfucker though... damn! heh... Dude, when the next computer show comes to town, I'm going to buy myself a laptop. It's going to rule! portable PC action. 5c0r3!!! Random thoughts are great. So, i was over at Jason's last night and he showed me what Marla got him for his b-day present... Rolling Stones concert tickets. Damn, she is good. Marla is on the ball when it comes down to it. She might seem crazy or off-the-wall, but underneath it all, she's got her shit together. I hope some day that I'll have what it takes to be like that... I don't know what it is about her, but there's definitely something unique about her. Jason and Marla.... what a great combination! They go together quite well... in theory, but everytime i see them together, it seems weird to me! I dunno, maybe it's the mixing of two totally different sets of friends. Jason's in one and Marla is in another. That's how my mind works and when two of them mix, all hell breaks loose with the "friend groupings" I'm a weird person. I enjoy being that way though. okay, i better stop now and come back later. I'm starting to ramble. June 30, 2002 Gahh... I'm sitting here, at the end of a relaxing weekend thinking about how i don't want to work tomorrow. Just got back from Cancun, Mexico early Friday morning and we were supposed to be back late wednesday but we went through hell just to get back. It all started with the first flight out of Cancun. We had to go around some weather in the Gulf, so it added an hour to the flight time and caused us to miss our connection in Huston. Since there was no more flights to Indy that night, we stayed in a hotel and got up early for the 7:15 flight, but it was over booked... So they put us on a flight to Detroit at 9:00. We got on that flight and had to wait in a line of about 15 planes for take-off which added about 40 minutes to the flight. We got to the Detroit airport with five minutes to make our connection to Indy. They decided to put the gate on the other frickin' side of the airport, so we missed that one too. They then rescheduled us for a 3:15 flight. We got on that one and it seemed we might actually make it... nope. About 40 minutes into the flight, the captain came on and said we had to turn back because of some nasty thunderstorms in Indy. Well, shit! We finally got a flight at 9:00 and made it into Indy about 10 o'clock and then had to go through a 4 hour drive to get home. That sucked! It took over 36 hours to get home. Other than that the vacation was decent. It was relaxing if you could look past the hawkers coming out of the woodwork trying to sell anything to you. Had some of the best steak i've ever had and got to snorkel in a natural aquarium, so it wasn't all bad. Anna, my sister, took along a friend, Michelle. At first i couldn't stand her. Her ditsyness and flamboiant displays were starting to get to me. Then I finally remembered what she had gone through. She had gone through an abusive father, an atempted suicide, and her brother had just died 3 months or so ago. I then realized that she still had a great outlook on life after all that. She's one tough cookie. I then started to get to know her a bit. I started enjoying her company. Anyways, the one night we spent in Huston, Anna was talking to her boyfriend or whatever on the phone and was kinda sick. I come out of the bathroom to get into my bed, since Anna a Michelle sleep together and i get the other bed. That was the arrangement all through vacation, so i was used to that. So anyways, i come out and Michelle was getting into my bed... I was very suprised and started to get nervous, after all she IS really hot. Well, i put on a t-shirt and shorts and hop into the bed and position myself on the edge of the bed. Damn, i was nervous. I couldn't sleep. I finally settled myself down telling myself she just doesn't want to sleep with Anna (she was a bit mad at her for always complaining about how much she missed Josh), NOT because she was interested in me. That was obvious, but my mind works kinda funny when i'm lying in bed next to an attractive women. I finally drift into sleep, right, and a couple of hours later Michelle tossed and turned to a point where she was right up close to me and brushed her arm against me. I woke up immediately. Scared me a bit and my nervousness went into overdrive. So that night I didn't get much sleep. Yikes. The wanting of some sort of cuddling or physical affection didn't help at all either! ^_^ Heard that Peggy and maybe Claire were going to come visit sometime this summer! I thought for sure that that wasn't going to happen. I was pleasantly suprised. I guess Jason coaxed Peggy into it. So, that means there's going to be a party!! Woohoo! Hopefully we can get Nate and Aubrey up and fish Marla out of hiding and have ourselves a shin dig. Awww hell yeah. I now have something to break up the next 7 weeks of work. Can't wait to be rid of this hellish job. I could keep going, but i have to work in the morning. I actually feel like writing more. Perhaps there will be another entry sooner than i usually do one. Score for the people visiting my journal. I guess you guys deserve a little treat considering you put up with my sporaticness. Of course that all depends on if you check my site more than twice a month... ^_^ |